Im feeling awful and terrible today.
Its like i cant stop myself from crying.
And when i asked myself what the hell im crying about,
the only thing that my mind answers is
trapped.
Im feeling so trapped.
Everything is turning upside down.
Im feeling so lost, i dont even know what the real problem is.
For a brief second, i even thought i was going insane,
Crying for no apparent reason.
Im telling myself to stop thinking about it,
But yet, i feel like doing something.
Im not that type of person that'll do anything to my body.
I dont even know what i want in life anymore.
There are times when i see myself cutting my hair and regretting it.
And there are times when i see myself taking pills im not suppose to.
But all i did was lock myself in the toilet and cry my heart out.
No one will know what im thinking of or what i might be doing.
Cos no one cares.
I dont even know if its true.
Hell, i dont even know who i am anymore.
I need the truth.
I need to know the reality of it all.