So i have decided that i'm gonna get this blog up and running again.
I used to have a problem with finding a topic to rant about here but suddenly i have lots of different inspiration to hit the keyboard with my ideas.
So the new chapter would just be random topics here and there,
i'm not specifically aiming somewhere but its good enough for a start.

I'll try to make this as interesting as possible starting from...
NOW.


i don't get the idea of a sleeveless hoodie.
Isn't the main idea of a hoodie is to keep one's body warm? Like i mean from your wrist onwards
So how does a sleeveless hoodie function? Ok, besides the fashionable point..
I mean look at it, i think they're hideous. They make people look like they're wearing life jackets on land. Don't get me wrong, i have this obsession for hoodies, but NEVER sleeveless hoodies.
But i'm sure everyone has their own taste and preferences so whoever, out there who are crazy for these sleevless hoodies, let me just give you a virtual handshake and say,
"Well done, you have reached the level where you can appreciate sleeveless hoodies"

OK not that this is affecting my life or anything.
MOVING ON..

Did you ever feel like you wanna shut yourself from the outside world?
Like ok, here's a scenario.
One day your friend calls you up and say,
"HEY! we haven't been hanging out, we should go out one day"
And at that moment of shrieking and getting yourself all excited,
You picked a day and an activity with your friend but also knowingly that at the back of your head, a tiny voice says, "i dont feel like doing this, i just feel like sitting at home and watch movies all day long. i haven't done that for a long time, this is the time"
Even then you continue planning with your friend thinking that you'll get over that tiny voice.
So throughout the whole day your frenzied friend keeps calling you up and tells you the time the place, the CLOTHES, the people, bla bla bla..
That tiny voice comes out again and says "omg, she's really pushing it. the more she tells me, the more i dont wanna go. how am i suppose to disappoint her? am i really mean to do this?"
So the next day, she calls you up really early in the morning and messages you like crazy asking if you have woken up and "why are you ignoring my calls" kind of messages and you just feel like screaming and say "FUCK ALL THIS. I DONT WANNA DO THIS ANYMORE"
You try to make excuses in your head to avoid this and comfort yourself but you have this tiny feeling in you.
You feel guilty.
You feel as if your the big bad wolf who ate your friend's enthusiasm.
But you tell yourself, "hey, i'm doing this for myself. this is my life, i control it. i dont need people to force me to do things. why should i give a fuck about what they think?"

and there you have it. your answers.

so i guess what people dont know about me is that i'm selfish.
yes i share my food, i share my wealth, i share everything that i have but yet i'm still selfish.
Selfish to my own desires.
i'm sorry but i have to admit it to the world that that is my biggest flaw.


ok i'm gonna do some re-evaluating about myself