ich bin krank.. ich habe Halsschmerzen :(

anyhoooos. dont you just hate it when you think you can handle smth
but the next thing you know, you are falling apart because you just simply cant handle it.
wtf am i talking about?

my weeks are slowly passing by
people are telling me to study, but why should i?
why must we be tested on knowledge?
i know no matter what i say right now, at the end of the day i'll still have to take the bloody exam,
but let me just clear my head from all this bullshit i have to face everyday.
people are ferociously studying in school, saying,
"there's no time you know.. only 35 more days"
but cant they see what they're running themselves into?
fucking competition and stressful life in the future
life isnt about literally chasing your dream is it?
it cant be all about study, study, exams, study, exams, Uni, exams, Work, Retrenched, New job, Mid-life crisis becos of job, marriage perhaps, if lucky; children, stressful life bcos of children +job, suicide attempts, divorcement, grow old in a haunted house.

ok, maybe the grow old in a haunted house isnt so normal
But do you get my point??
Why are people chasing after this sort of life?!?!
yea yea, they always say, cry now, laugh later
but what about laughing throughout the time?
shouldnt we be allowed to not only have fun, but enjoy life as it is?
i mean, yeah, knowledge is a must have, no question about that
but why stress ourselves up with like exams and shit?
just get the knowledge and move on!

on a side note, i just dreamt of a movie that never existed.
Something about being drowned from a sea of spaghetti
or was it just spaghetti sauce?
anyways, then all of a sudden sam and i were at some vintage stall asking for some ancient sword
and i was talking to the stall owner in bahasa indon. wtf!!
and then back to the tragedy of spaghetti, where i was searching for dakota fanning's movie-list cos i thought she acted in some movie that involved spaghetti-sauce-drowning
OH OH, then suddenly i was in this theatre with my sister.
The theatre was so weird because the screen was all around the theatre and they keep changing screens for the advertisement so the audience kind of have to turn their heads everytime. its stupid actually.. OH plus before each advertisement, they had those chinese opera people to present to the audience before the advertisement was shown.
I remember cursing at them cos they were speaking chinese and i was consistently asking my sis, "Why the fuck is this in chinese? are we watching a chinese movie or smth? What are we even watching?!?" hahaha

im going to feed myself some spaghetti now.