i have alot going on in my mind right now
Sometimes i'm afraid of being emotional, or too emotional
cos by the end of it, i'll be afraid of myself cos then i feel like i totally lost my identity


we are driven by the things around us
people, situations, feelings, technology, authority
but then again, i am the director of my own life
i make my own movie, i create the scripts
but i feel like im an entertainer;
a performer in a show where people around me just sit as audience
smile when i say something right
laugh when i make a joke
be appalled when i do something they didnt expect me to do
they are there; their presence is obvious, but they just sit and stare
we have a hidden connection but somehow its not really there
now i feel like they're slowly leaving
its as if my show is ending and they're left with 30 seconds before the Exit sign disappears
and i'm left staring at empty seats, screaming 'shows over..'
left alone with this string of hopeless words.