Sometimes I think I'm blind
Blind to the fact that his standing right there in front of me
And there I was, zooming past him.
Its weird when you've looked all over the place and get frustrated at yourself for not being able to get what you've been looking for,
When what you've been looking for is right in front of you.

3 years and I'm throwing it all away.
Truth is, I'm not throwing it away like an old, ripped t-shirt
(i'd use it for art or something)
I'm just putting it aside because I'm afraid.
I'm afraid to commit myself and then regret
I want to learn from my past mistakes, but what about avoiding these mistakes?
It's like we're given Mistake Coupons and now mine is running out.
I want to plunge in and take the risk, but how far will I go?

I'm proud of him, I really am.
His turned out to be someone I'd want to spend the rest of my life with.
But should I be so sure of myself?
Or maybe we're just people from a different world.
Only allowed to communicate through a common medium
Us not being able to hold each other and kiss each other because we really want to
Am I not allowed this relationship?

One thing for sure is, his right.
I did learn something from this.
I learned that we can't all be selfish.
I know I can never get everything that I want,
Only a certain fragment of what I wish for, but never a full one.
And I think I can live with that.